Everyone who was so important to me once upon a time - all the men, the friends, the colleagues - are now just a part of the memory I have of myself at an earlier stage in time. We lost touch. We broke up. We moved away. We went on with our own individual lives and loves.
I’ve always been so scared of change and the evolution of my life towards an imminent death. Each neglected friendship or faded lover is just another reminder that things will never be the same again and that time of life is over. And soon it will be all over. A part of me tries to grasp onto those moments so badly so I can keep myself hoping for a little longer - save a few more precious minutes of my younger self while I’m constantly evolving into my older self.
Part of me is tinged with sadness for missing the past; that sense of eternal hope that comes from being younger than you are at this minute - the sense of a future yet to be unfolded rather than a present that is receding into a memory and a future that is imminently morphing into the present.
"I’ll regret it when I’m older". I always think this in my mind, whenever I look for justification or permission to do something I wouldn’t normally do. I argue that my future self would be upset because I missed out on doing so much. Seeing so much. Living as much as I could have.
But things evolve. Things change. And the person you thought you were a year ago isn’t the person you are today. The things you wanted aren’t the same. You won’t be the same person at your death that you are now. It’s impossible to predict or even try to shape. Everything will fall where it may.
And life…well. Life just goes on, ignorant to your hopes and fears but saving you from them at the same time.
Debenhams shows diversity in fashion…
By Kay, Editorial Assistant , The Debenhams Blog
“Here at Debenhams we believe that anyone can look fabulous in our range- which is why we’ve decided to break with Convention…
“Our Customers are not the same shape or size so our latest look book celebrates this diversity. We would be delighted if others followed our lead. Hopefully these shots will be a step, albeit a small one, towards more people feeing more comfortable about their boidies,’” said Ed Watson, Director of PR, Debenhams”
Wow, they are all gorgeous. I also really like the two middle dresses.